oooh. pacifica.

oooh. pacifica. pacific memories really. having a few echoes this week.

a lover to take back?

yeserday an old colleague, the cool cool JB rang to say "don't stay away so long you forget what it's like here [in png]". and i hear you lady. i mean, i know how close to the line all of this is and i promise i will do my best - i think that's all a baby can do (although i'm not sure just doing my best means i live up to My Promise (??)(and does that really matter??)).

ultimately (the way i feel right now) i want to be in png and thrive there and make babies there and create futures and ignite fires ... but right now i just can't envisage myself doing that without a Partner For Life and ... and ... and it seems to me i am just going to have to find a boy to take back there because when i was living there none of the men i met seemed to think i was the kind of woman they could throw their arms around and hold tight and say all of that feels like they were born to it. and i am not going to apologise for not being with someone unless they think i am magic.

so while i am away i shall play and pash a little too and get some funny and some hurt and maybe give some away ... but when i meet the man who says I Dig You, I Can Do This, Lets Play Forever ... Together. then i'll be ready to come home. i think. coz i dont want to go home trying to find a man to give me babies. if i did i dont think i'd have much luck. and if i am going to png. to live. and make babies. i definitely need a Forever Man to facilitate.

a lover to go back for?

a certain MissingB in Melbourne writes to say leaving PNG 4 months ago is also leaving ripples in her life and moving closer to Melbourne than Madang doesnt mean that one door closes - especially when you leave a part of your future behind and he calls you back there

and soon she goes back. not forever. but still returning.

lovers can wait

then of course i have pinkyu - who writes me well and hears i miss melbourne and understands me when i say i miss moresby too. pinky says baby should play and play in sydney. keep playing. soon a man is going to Stand Up and say You Totally Rock My World and Let Me Be The First Person You Call ... Ever Again.

and baby will say mwah!! and kiss off all the frogs.

until then pinky u says come come, she says to ricebag:

Hello darling,

It's time for you to take a break and come down to Melbourne.

You're coming to stay with us, and we will:

• wander around;
• sit in the backyard drinking wine and smelling the jasmine;
• eat the best food ever;
• drink tea in the middle of the night;
• eat goats cheese rolled in ash;
• giggle lots;
• paint the town red, yellow and black;
• wear sparkly things;
• watch the sun rise;
• eat copious amounts of vietnamese food;
• bemoan the demise of the op shop, but still shop in them;
• play;
• hug;
• etc.

I miss you!

Love and hugs and kisses,

Pinking